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Monday, February 21, 2011

Natural...



Sometimes I feel I try to hard to be 'me'. I find myself more at ease with photos when I don't try as hard to be natural in them. The photo on the left is at the Valentines Day social for his Battalion. I had on fake nails, tried the whole fake eyelash thing, yeh, that didn't work...I just tried to hard to feel good in the dress. The whole time I was thinking, oh gosh, what is sticking out, what is not sucked in, what is showing? I just didn't feel natural. Now as for this other one on the right, I just love this picture. I feel 100% naturally pretty and relaxed. I didn't take 3 hours to get ready and I didn't have anything fake on. Just did my makeup like I always do and was very comfy in my jeans and casual shirt. I was just so happy and naturally posed for this picture. We were talking down the hill holding hands and throwing back love taps...then Kriston turned around and said, 'smile'. I did. I didn't hold anything in, didn't stick anything out, just was NATURAL! To me there is a big difference and I love it. I have to realize that the harder I try to be something I am not, the harder it is so see the genuine happiness in the photo!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Cleaning off the chair...


Chair 'Before' 'After'

Geesh, I don't even know where to begin on this one. I used to think that instead of 'cleaning off the plate', I should just buy a bigger one...well, today I have decided that I can't do that anymore. It's time to 'clean off the chair' to allow a little room to sit! There does come a time when enough is enough. No, I didn't add the handles, just showing the seat part!
These thoughts began with realizing that I am messing up so much on Scentsy orders because my heart is just not into it anymore. Everyone sells it here and I keep buying stuff to keep myself afloat for the next 2.5 years to continue it in the states. Everyday, there is someone else joining here and I am not a competitive person, so I have to let it go. I am so consumed with my 'full time' job Junkin' that it keeps so busy. I also am in the middle of reupholstering a ladies dining room chairs, ear deep in crafts and love every minute of it! As I was beginning to pull the staples out of the next chari, I realized that if I am not using my hands in either creating, painting, or using hand tools, I am not happy. The Scentsy is alot of paperwork and sitting. Everyone knows by now that I DON'T SIT!
This leads to the next random thought...TINKERKELL...I changed her name to mine because I am always busy and tinkering in something. She never sat still either. I just enjoy using my creativity to much. I see something, I make it. If I don't have the materials to do, I order it or go find it somewhere. I also recycle or reuse everything. For example, Jacob needed a Valentines Day box for his class party. I used the box that the Vday cards came in. We covered it in some Vday scrapbooking paper and some stickers....leading to...
I wash my styrofoam plates and bowls. They can be used a few times over before splitting, so I wash them. When it's just the three of us here for dinner, that is our fine china. I recycle picture frames, paper, labels, you name it, I reuse it and create new things out of it.
I just have to realize that there is a time when to much is to much. I need to focus on the few things I am good at and give it my all instead of fanning my self out to far...I have included a picture of the chairs I just did! I finally took the 1 minute to learn how to post pictures to the blog!




Monday, February 14, 2011

During the day, there are so many times I just wish I could talk and it would type for me. I always have thoughts and ideas in my head. Soemtimes by the time I get to sit and type, my mind goes blank...we normally don't celebrate Valentine's Day. He is usually gone to the field, NTC, or IRAQ. But not this year, he was home and we loved it. I went to lunch alone due to him not being able to get away from a promotion thing at work. Then I went shopping in American Village by myself. It was quiet and relaxing. After coming home and learning that Kriston, Terry, and the girls weren't coming up for dinner, we decided to go to Macaroni Grill. So far we have chosen that place for every occasion. Since we couldn't go in the states, we are making up for it here! So for a day we never celebrate, it turned out wonderful!

Now Brianna is gone, Jacob is (supposed to be) sleeping, and Jeremiah has put himself in a time out in front of the XBox..., I am sitting!! I love to reflect on the day and let my thoughts loose. Due to Facebook, I have rekindled so many friendships, some I thought I never would, and love it. It gives me a chance to be me and for those who accept that, a chance to keep up with me and keep learning about who I am and have become.

I love being able to express myself and show the world who I am. If they don't agree, stop reading about it! Since being married to the ARMY, I have considered myself the "PINK" sheep of my family. I am the one who mived away and had to learn a whole new world. There isn't anything I can't do. I love it. It makes me.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Underestimating

Why? Why do I always underestimate myself. I don't give my self credit. I am always wanting me to do better on things that no one can do for me. For example, I went to have my makeup done by Lancome. The 'artist', she didn't have a license, so she never went to makeup school, did my makeup nice, but not the way I wanted it. So far NO ONE can do it the way I want it. I really wsih I could put in a call to Kim's artist and get my eyes done like her. Oh well, that will never happen, so I guess I better watch alot of youtube and learn it myself. There has been a few occasions when I do my own makeup and it has always turned out better. I need to believe in myself more.

I do so much for myself. I have been so angry in the past for Jeremiah always being gone. Sometimes I thank the situation because it has taught me how to be strong and believe in myself. There isn't anything I can't do...ok, maybe an oil change or something but for the most part, I do it. I enjoy it.

I do my crafts, I flip furniture and make so pretty awesome money doing it. I give up on myself to fast. I have always had followers but to me, it's just not good enough to sell. Maybe it's because I post items I make on websites and other websites. I have been trying to get my name out there for years. At the end of the day when nothing sells, I just smile because I know that my hard work and love went into what I created. I enjoy making things and using my creativity. I won't give that asset up. For nothing or nobody.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Not enough time in a day...

You know the famous question, if you could go back in the past to meet someone, who would it be...mine would be the person who invented TIME. I would ask him/her to add a few hours to the day. I get up a few minutes before Jacob gets up for school. I make the coffee, turn on the computer, and it's a blur from there. I really have managed to turn my 'housewife' career into something big. I take care of the house, the bills, the cleaning, and the laundry. I do my kickboxing and that is my good stress reliever. I can't say cooking because Jeremiah loves to cook and he helps with grocery shopping, he loves it. With junkin' and Scentsy, I don't sit. Don't forget school and occasionally I will sit to watch TV. I hate sitting though. I sit here at my computer typing this and all I can think about are the 10 projects I have starting to pile up in my front hallway. I fall asleep to thinking of paint combinations. I just want to get up and go work on something. Sleep sometimes just gets in my way. I don't have time to sleep. I just need a few more hours. I am trying to figure out a sleep pattern for me. For some reason, on the weekends when the alarm doesn't have to go off, I am up earlier than the week wide awake. I get more done. I am trying to get in bed by 11 and up by 6:30. That might even be to much sleep.

My week so far has been a blur...between two scentsy parties, errands, driving around, trying to be in two places at once...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Everyday this week there is something happening all the way through Sunday. Then it begins all over!

Guess the saying holds true...I would rather work 80 hours for myself than 40 for someone else!