It's been a while...

Wow, has it been that long since I have sat down, wait, be right back, have to get the coffee...sigh, I am sitting!! YAY!! The past few weeks has been a whirlwind for me. I did awesome at the 58th Signal Battalion Fundraiser with my cupcakes! The picture is of my table, but I my vision for it is to lean towards Shabby Chic decor. I want the whites. Just love that look...

Anyway, so during the Bazaar, it was slow at times but during those times, I was very busy marketing and networking. It took off. I met so many people, got names of coordinators for shows here and met lots of great ladies who do crafts! Just had an awesome weekend. Since then, it has been NON-STOP. With people coming by for Baby Gifts, custom orders for personalized blocks, and baby blocks. This past week I took the plunge and started my website, it is www.tinkerkell.com. I decided to go with that because for one, I just love Tinkerbell, she is just adorable. Her name stands for a lot. She is a fairy who TINKERS with things. She is a builder, she works with her hands. That is me, I love working with hands and creating things. Every day I have new ideas and make them work. SO, I took her name out and put MINE in!! Tinkerkell...everything I TINKER with...

My blogs, my photography, my fiverr, my crafts, my scra booking, my nutrition...list just goes on. I also love helping people and consulting. Not professionally, but just enjoy telling them about deals, coupons, bargains, new places, new websites, new everything!! I made my FB page and that is going well. I also joined a FB group of ladies here on island that work from home and just love the group. Everyone is just so supportive of each other and that is how it should be. We are all on this island together and without each others support, we wouldn't be where we all are today. This picture is name set I completed today! Another satisfied customer...

I am at 'piece' again...

Wow, it amazing what a picture can do to you that you haven't looked at in a while...since cleaning off my platters, I have found myself scrapbooking more. I just can't express how relaxing and calming it is. To go back through hundreds and hundreds of pictures to pick a theme to create an everlasting memory is just breathtaking. My whole world stops revolving around me and I just go back to that moment in time that my camera captured. I just sit and stare at it and just smile. No matter what the day held for me, as soon as I sit down, I am happy and at 'piece'!

It takes a few minutes to visualize it in my head of what I want. Once the glue goes down, there is no turning back. I go through tons of papers and embellishments, making sure to pick the perfect one. Then I start cropping, trimming, distressing, rearranging a few times, and then it starts to come together...just like 'pieces' of a puzzle. As I get further into it, the empty spaces begin to fill up. I don't empty space, geesh, now that I think about it, no wonder I don't like empty space on my pages...I hate empty spaces in my time and life. If I have a few minutes to chill, I am still doing something. I don't sit, everyone knows that, so I guess they go together...anyway, back to scrapbooking. (just had a KDD moment there) I then look at the page and see where I can fit one more embellishment or ribbon. Finally, when there is no more room, it is just perfect for me, like the pieces of a puzzle, it just all fits together!

For those of you who don't know, I used to teach scrapbooking at Central Texas College. I did a few classes and then stopped. It was great, it was there I met two awesome ladies who one of them became such a dear friend, her and her family. We will have such a great story to scrapbook together one day when I move back to Texas...I brought allllllllll my scrapbooking supplies here to Oki and hopet og et caught up on the past 7 years...ouch, that looks bad. I don't go in order, I look through pictures and when a page idea comes to mind, I go for it. I am very behind, but hey, you can't rush time. I like to create scrapbooks for others as well, but can't put my heart and soul into someone else's memories while mine are so fresh in my head.

My scrapbooking tells my life, my dreams, my goals. It lets me be me with every ribbon, paper, rub on, and chipboard letter. It is my one way to express myself at the given moment in time and if I ever lose who I am, I just take a few minutes to sit down and look through the finished books. I just smile or caress the picture. Takes me back. There is no replacing that with any piece of technology, bank account, car, trip, nothing because it lies in your soul. You take all the materialistic things out of this world and you are still left with moments, happy, sad, funny, frightening, but you still have it...forever.

My scrapbooks are my book of life and I am the author...I am not after a prize or recognition, just capturing memories and holding onto them. One of Jacob's most favorite things to do is to sit down in my lap and we go through his baby books. I tell each and every story and he just laughs as I hug him tighter and tighter. When we are done, he says, 'can we do it again, I love my baby moments'. I save every little piece of moments for my books. Ticket stubs, receipts, ribbons, etc to add to that moment. I try to make each page come to life while looking at it.

Well, he just got home from school and it is time to go back and start his 6th Birthday Party page...will be posted soon!!!

7 Years in the Making!!

Ugh, does this have to happen today...Jacob turns 7...I am just torn up about it. Yes, of course I am so happy and fun about the day, but he's getting older and I don't want him to. I want him to stay young and my baby. I know that won't happen and I need to let him grow up, I am, trust me, but at night when I go in to tuck him in, I just can't help but get sappy. He still looks like the day he was born and when I kiss him goodnight, he makes that noise babies do and throws his arms up to stretch and move. Uh, sigh. His birthday party went awesome, no other way to describe it. Just perfect. We are so blessed with the friends here and they were all there. They were there for mine, and now for his. Just wonderful! I know that I can't keep him a baby, but he will always be one to me. I try everyday to raise him the 'right' way. I have a hard time realizing that you can't raise the kids today like we were. It sucks. I am way to over protective, but I can't fathom the idea of anything happening to my baby boy! I love you Bunk, Happy 7th Birthday!!!

As I sit here...

I just stare at the screen trying to remember word for word what I wanted to type throughout the day when I finally get a chance to sit and type. Now that my PINK keyboard is in front of me, I draw a blank. Then it dawns on me as I sort through the tons of websites I visit each day why I am typing...HATERS SUCK. Sorry, that was a bit harsh, but so are they. Just imagine the tone of that sentence with me very cool, calm, and relaxed sitting with you and chatting and then all of a sudden, I jump up and scream, HATERS SUCK...get the picture, good, here I go, hang on...!

The other day I, well, Jacob and I, ran some errands and we came across an entertainment unit on the curb. We looked it over, made sure it wasn't broke and grabbed it. I wanted to add some color to it so I covered it in fabric, to give it some life. I posted it and sure enough, my HATER fan club came out again. They wrote on the OYS site this time and not the underground page that this sat in the rain, was wobbly, cracked and broke. I don't pick stuff up that is like that. I am trying to start a business doing this so why would I?? I guess there are people out there that just can't stand other success. It bothers me. I know I shouldn't let it, but I am not that strong to hide it. I can tell you that it's not a big deal, but it is. It hurts. It sucks.

I got bashed a few weeks ago and gave up. Then I sat back and realized that nobody will do that to me. Well, I started looking at my plate of things like this...let me paint you another picture...You have a BBQ, all the food at this BBQ are your ideas, dreams, thoughts, projects all laid out on the table for you. You go down the line, look at some of them and decide if this is for you. Is it good for you, is it bad, will it cause heartache, etc. Then you sit down and enjoy every last bite of those mixtures of ideas, dreams, and thoughts. Yummy, just thinking about how delicious they are and how you could just let this fester in your stomach and do you good...right? When you are finished, it's time to scrap off the tiny bit of leftovers you can't fit in your waistline anymore. Well, you go to lay it down on the counter because in comes another idea and you forget about the plate that now has the food drying and sticking to it. It continues to sit and harden because you are to busy jotting down other ideas, dreams, and thoughts. You go off and have a blast with those new ideas and just let the other ones sit. Well, there is a time that you HAVE TO GO AND CLEAN IT OFF. Wash the plate and put it away for another time. There will be more BBQ's, trust me.

So, for now, with being at peace with it all, I have whole heartedly decided to stop the junkin' and flippin' for a bit. I am strong in a sense that I can survive my husband defending this country, but can't survive people tearing me up. All my friends tell me not to let it stop me, but I just can't do it anymore. I will get my plate out again in Texas where I have the support system with me at work everyday to do this.

Right now, it is time to focus on becoming a substitute teacher, which my packet has been filled out for about 9 months. I just haven't taken it up because I have been to busy with the furniture stuff, you know the bad food...Hopefully I will get picked up for that and will be surrounded in my scrapbooking. I haven't done that since we got here and my goal was to be caught up on my thousands of pictures before we go back. If I make anything, it will go on ebay or etsy. Somewhere where people appreciate the work and not slam it into the ground, like this place. This island is small and these wives have nothing else to do but get in other peoples way. I am not giving up, I am just going to relax for a bit with all of this. I am smiling and very content. I appreciate all the awesome feedback and comments. Truly is amazing.

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For some reason when I went to share my last blog on FB, it says that the message has been blocked due to abusive matter. So this is a test in case it does go through...

Down in a hole~wait, I see another door...

So, today I was reading more on my life as a internet celebrity and how people don't have anything else better to do than bash others. I also had some words with this lady about her telling me I am a rude person to deal with when it comes to selling stuff, that is another blog and I don't feel like getting upset over that again...yea yea yea, I'm over it. Yes, I was upset, but now I have had time to GET OVER IT! So...this is how it is.

I don't like to draw negative attention to myself. I am not the one to take the spotlight, I usually hide behind people. I don't try to fit in because I was born to stand out in my own way. All this nonsense has made me hide in a hole for a while. I took my Scentsy sticker off my car just because I don't want people to point me out in a crowd. I took my stuff off the yard sale page to just go MIA for a bit. Want things to settle. This is how I look at all this...I may be in a hole, but while being down here, I turned around to take a look at my surroundings and off in a distance past all the ways of jealousy, envy, stupidity, and bashing, I noticed this teeny tiny PINK door with a light on. I went towards it and VIOLA...it's a NEW START for me. I am a huge believer in fate and that for every bad thing that happens, there is ten good things that come out it.

Once inside this new door, and closing the one behind me now, I am going to stop selling my items on the OYS page and go bigger. My house is one big clutter closet with all this stuff and I know Jeremiah supports what I do, but I am sure he would love to come home one day to open the door without running into a dresser, table, paint cans, etc. I don't have any projects going on right now that are requiring me to post it and sell it. I am refocusing on my OTHER passion of scrapbooking and paper crafts. I brought EVERYTHING with me for scrapbooking and have it all set up in our third bedroom. I have so much stuff, I could open a store. My goal while here was to get caught up on my books and go home with no scrapbooking supplies. Um, well so far that ain't happenin', lol. Soooo, instead of getting up and checking to see if I have sold anything overnight, I will scrapbooking and doing what matters...preserving my life!!

I am going to focus on making gifts, pages, crafts and items to sell. I have big hopes and dreams in my future and it's time to get started. I have an Etsy account and will be selling on there. Forget the people here who bash me, they just don't realize that in this bashing session, they have inspired me to go bigger. So 'Thank You' to those haters.

There are a few more certificates I want to accomplish while here for when I get back and without the worries of the OYS page, I will be soaking up every ounce of information to persue what I want. Even though I made excellent money in my 'junkin', it's time to let go for awhile. But, I am not giving up, I am just moving on. This whole thing has taught me not to give up on truly matters~